My due date for Rebecca was Dec 3rd. As it approaches I am having more anxiety attacks and crying spells. Did anyone else go through this in anticipation of the due date.
Why is a date so hard to cope with?
Any thoughts or advice on how to get through this without all the anxiety.
For me it was the days leading up to her c-section date that I found hardest. I took that day off of work and we went to visit Lily at the cemetery. The day itself wasn't too bad. I knew my c-section time as well so I watched the clock during that time to mark when it would have began and at what point I probably would have had my baby girl.
I had some rough times between that date and her EDD but I actually worked on her EDD (I could have taken it off but didn't think it was necessary.) I took yesterday and today off though. Partially because I have a cough but more so because I am feeling depressed.
It is still new territory for us. I guess we just take it one moment at a time and cling to each other for help.
I believe that the EDD is hard because it was the "big day" that every thing was based on from the very beginning. It is the day that everything was supposed to happen on. I wish you peace and strength. ((((HUGS))))
Today is the 27th of Nov. and I can't help feeling like I should be feeling labor pains or I should be huge and uncomfortable. I had a rough time sleeping last night, tossed and turned just thinking the what ifs again. Why can't I just heal this empty feeling in my heart. Why can't I just move on with my life. I feel stuck. I wanted her so much and I had so many hopes and dreams for her. It doesn't even feel like it should be christmas because in my heart I know she should be here. I don't know why God took her from me. I pray that I will find peace one day and be able to move on with TTC again and finally being a mom.
I am just venting. Thanks for listening.
It is taking you so long to heal because you are normal. We think about our daughters everyday and the fact that we won't have our little girls with us at Christmas is just not fair. I don't know why or if God choose us. I still struggle with that. I read "When Bad Things happen to good people". It is written by a Rabbi whose son died. It kind of helped me with the whole issue of God. That being said it is not a religious book and it is non denominational. It is a quick read.
I don't know if it will be the same for you but now that my due date has passed I just focus on the fact that Lily should be here with me as Rebecca should be with you next week. So it doesn't necessarily get any easier.
Oh Robin, I definitely know how you feel. My EDD would have been December 1st. I have been so anxious...having so many nightmares...and cant stop thinking about where I SHOULD be right now. I SHOULD be going into labor any day. I SHOULD be complaining about my skin hurting and being so uncomfortable...I SHOULD be whining about how much I want my baby out....but he is already out, and there is no changing it. I see the women on my BB having their babies, and it breaks my heart. I dont have any advice for you. I wish so badly that I knew what to say to make it all better...for you, for myself, for all of us.