Hello, I lurk here quite a bit....especially after I had a m/c last October. After a healthy baby and then 3 years of TTC ( with a little stop off for surgery), we had FINALLY concieved last fall. They within a short time of finding out, I miscarried while on vacation. It was a terrible, awful time, and just reading about others on here helped a lot (thanks!) I could not post then, it was just too hard. After the years of trying, we started again soon, and unbelievably, concieved then, and I am pregnant again, in my 2nd trimester. The first months were soooo hard and so scary..so many women don't realize a pregnancy can be so scary and stressful and a waiting game (waiting for all the u/s or hearing h/b and etc!!)
I am so excited for this baby, however, the due date of the other babe was this week, and it is sooo hard to think we lost that little angel. I wonder what he/she would have been like, and sit here thinking, I could have a baby in my hands right now!!
I am a teacher, and everyone says "Sept is a bad time for teachers to have babies, you didn't plan that very well, huh?" Well, I didn't PLAN it at all!! God just took away the other baby and somehow by some miracle we got this new babe. However, I just for some reason am still grieving a lot over the lost little angel. People saying that stuff hurts me more than they realize!
Thanks for letting me post and vent on here, no one else (besides DH), really understands, or even gets the hurt I felt from the m/c. It helps just to talk about my lost little one now......