I think today is going to be really hard!
I am thinking that a/f is on her way. This will be the first one since the loss of Christian on 12/9. I had really hoped that I would be one of those ladies that gets pg right after a loss and goes on to have a perfect baby...but I don't think that will be happening. I know that it is much better to give my body time to heal. I really do! But I am just so sad not to be pg anymore!
I called in to work today so I can just cry! This whole week has been full of teary moments! One moment I am doing just fine or even good, and then WHAM! I am back to tears. It happens lots in my car and also talking with others about Christian.
One positive thing has come out of my loss is my renewed spirituality! My dh and I have also become much closer emotionally and spiritualy. We have been together for over 10 years and just last Sunday we went to church for the first time together!
I know that tomorrow will be better (maybe even a good day!), but today I just want to be sad and cry. Do you ever feel that way?
I know I don't post a lot, don't know anyone very well, and I am very new to this board, but I want to thank everyone here for giving me a safe place to stay!
Christian David :angel13: 12/9/07