It just dawned on me today that my mom has knit my new nephew's stocking. She knits one for all members of our family and we open our stockings at her house on Christmas day. I called her in tears and asked her to make one for Lily too.
I don't know why the realization hit me today but my mom will have one knit for Lily as well.
I miss Lily so much. I am glad all of you remarkable women understand my longing and my pain. I don't think I have said Merry Christmas to anyone yet. Bah humbug! I don't want to be merry! I also didn't send out cards this year - just couldn't face it.