It just dawned on me today that my mom has knit my new nephew's stocking. She knits one for all members of our family and we open our stockings at her house on Christmas day. I called her in tears and asked her to make one for Lily too.
I don't know why the realization hit me today but my mom will have one knit for Lily as well.
I miss Lily so much. I am glad all of you remarkable women understand my longing and my pain. I don't think I have said Merry Christmas to anyone yet. Bah humbug! I don't want to be merry! I also didn't send out cards this year - just couldn't face it.
I totally understand. My grandmother makes a stocking for every member of the family. For instance my husband did not get one until we were married, he got his stocking stuffers in a basket, then when we were married she hung a stocking with his name on it. I know this year there will be no stocking for Rebecca because my grandmother has pretended that it hasn't happened. Actually my whole family acts that way except for my husband and I.
I am so glad that Lily will have a stocking. At least you will have that to hold onto on that day.
Not looking forward to christmas either, I wish I could but I just want my daughter with me as I am sure you do.
I am so glad to hear that Lily will have her own stocking. I miss Damien so very much and if it weren't for Frankie I would just boycot this year's "festivities". I am trying to bury myself with tasks to not allow the brain to think very much. Some times it works and some times it doesn't. I don't have to work on Tuesday and my riveting task for the day is to go through all of our paperwork and organize it and then file it in the filing cabinet. OOOOOH exciting. But wait, there's more. After that (or during) there will be the amazing cleaning of the oven and the awe inspiring washing of Frankie's clothing. I am hoping that I can contain myself. (is the dripping sarcasm coming through?) I wish that I had answers, but I don't. I just hope and pray that we all find some way of coping and surviving.
I have lots of paperwork, filing and laundry here if you'd like to hop on a plane and have a change of scenery. You better bring warm clothes though!
If you were closer or in a warmer climate, then maybe, well, nah. I don't even want to do my own. I guess I'll just have to put on my big girl panties and just deal with it. I hope that the cold isn't treating you too horribly. I hope that you are doing okay. Shelly