I know what you mean. I hug the stockings today with my nephew (who lives with us and his father) and I said to my husband one is missing. Dawson (my nephew) said what do you mean and I said you know the baby that I was suppose to have but is an angel instead well I was suppose to have her for christmas, he said, well at least you still have me. Talk about out of the mouths of babes.
I know I am going to have tough days ahead but I am just trying to stay occupied. Hugs to you. I hope you feel better. Your friendship has meant a lot to me. Just try to stay positive as you can.
I am sending big hugs your way. I have been feeling quite melancholy as of late. I can't stay in any one emotional state at all lately. I swing like a pendulum. I wish all of us peace and serenity and whatever strength that we may need to make it through the holidays.