Im feeling really sad today. My friend has just given birth to her baby today, and my best friend is due to go in and be induced on the day of my d & c.
My DH has loads of work problems at the moment (he works in IT and he is having server problems) so is working all day and most evenings. He is under alot of stress so is a bit snappy.
My mum was supposed to be picking my 2 children up form school on Friday and keeping them till I got home from hospital after D & C, but she forgot she had promised to have my sisters daughter whilst her and her boyfriend go away for the weekend. So my mum told my sister to drop her daughter in to my house at 5!!! thats the last thing im going to want to come home to feeling groggy after the d & c. The house will be trashed (my two are 5 & 6, and my niece is 6) I was kind of hoping she could have kept my 2 calm and got them to bed for me. There would be no chance of that with my niece here, they would all be hyper and wide awake! So now I have no babysitter as I told her no way. Its an added stress i can do without. Plus im a little upset with my sister as I would have thought she would probably come and see me after d & c, I am always there for her, and drop everything every time she needs me. They are only going to see family so she perhaps could have gone the next weekend.
Perhaps its just me being really irrational, but I feel so low at the moment, and every tiny thing or added stress is really getting to me. I dont think im coping very well. Sure im going through the motions, getting up, showered, taking care of children etc (and putting on a brave face for them), but I feel so terrible inside. I also get the impression that no-one really understands, and is wondering why im not over it by now.
Thanks so much for listening.