I just am feeling soooo sad right now. I don't post a lot, haven't posted alot anywhere lately. The bleeding has slowed down so I guess that means that the m/c is almost done. I sit here and think, oh, on Monday I would have been 7 weeks and so on and so on...I had to cross out Nov 12th on my calender which would have been the day I was to have my first u/s if things had gone well. There is no sense is asking 'why' this happened, it just did. I know there was nothing I did, but the more I think about it the more real it becomes. I went and saw my primary MD and got back on an antidepressant, I have been taking them off and on since before I had my kidney transplant in 2001. Most recently I attempted to go off, and then all this stuff happened, and most days, although I did, getting out of bed was very difficult. I wish I didn't need a pill to help me feel "normal". KWIM? I just wish things were different. I hope you all don't mind that I come here from time to time and post. If I come here too often it is just a sad reminder of what we all have had to go through. I am sorry for all of your losses. I just needed to get this off my chest. Thank you for listening.