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Hi everyone, I just had my first m/c last week (and hopefully my last!!! Fingers crossed!!!).

I woke up Tuesday morning and was bleeding bright red, and I just knew what was happening. I went to my RE's office with DH, and somehow managed to keep it together during the ultrasound (there was nothing in there to see at that point), while in the waiting room, during the consultation with the doctor, and walking out to the car. I was even cracking jokes (the doctor must have thought I was crazy), but it was either that or have a complete melt-down right there! Then I cried the whole way home.

It sucks, because it took me a year of IUI's and fertility stuff to get pregnant in the first place. I know it will happen for me again, but I'm frustrated that I have to wait around for my next cycle to start. I just want to get back into TTC because I feel like I'm sitting here wasting time. I thought I was fine emotionally, but then I started crying again yesterday just out of frustration - knowing that I have to just wait around for AF to show up before I can start TTC again.

Thanks for listening!

Renee

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Renee--I am so sorry that you are having to go through this.
I had my d&c 2 weeks ago and I felt the same way at the time. My husband & I were in the hospital laughing and being our normal selves. It was either that or cry non-stop.
I hope you don't have too long of a wait until you can start TTC again.
I wish you the best of luck!!

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hey, renee......so sorry about your loss Sad we lost our little bean about 6 days ago. the saddness comes and goes....at times i feel like i can kind of joke and be lighthearted about the whole situation and at other times i am just bawling my eyes out....we'll ge through this together!

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I'm sorry for your loss. I know how fustrating it can be. I was told I was infertile for 10 yrs, then poof I was pg. It was a gift from God. Then suddenly it was all taken away. Now I'm determined to TTC. I went crazy waiting for AF. For 20+ years I knew exactly when it was going to arrive, now I just had to sit and wait for it. I took OPK's twice a day for 4 weeks straight with no serge. With no ovulation, I didn't have a clue when AF would arrive. Finally on the 6th week I got AF. Now, I'm waiting for O. I think a person can go crazy with "waiting".

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I'm so very sorry for your loss, Renee. :bighug:

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So sorry, Renee.. I don't thenk the Dr. thinks you are crazy. I am sure at times like these, he sees all different kinds of emotions. Hang in there. this is a great board of people who have "been there and done that". Big hugs to you. We are here to support you.
Erin~mommy to angel babies, Quinn and Elliot

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So sorry for your loss! I know how you feel with the waiting too! After I lost my son (actually 11 years ago) all I could think of was getting pg again. It was almost like I couldnt even face the world seeing babies and pg women everywhere I went if I didnt have a baby inside of me again!! The urgency of my feeling was something I had never experienced before!! Hopefully your af will come back 4-6 weeks after your mc and you can be blessed with a baby in 09!! (((HUGS)))

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Thanks for the kind words and support, ladies! I'm happy to have found a place where there are others who understand what I'm going through.

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I am sorry for your loss.

When you are ready to TTC again, check out TTCAL. You will find a lot of support there.

Melissa
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Hun I am so sorry for your loss. I know its not easy but we are here for you.

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Renee, I am so sorry for you loss. I lost my baby girl (Abby) at 14 weeks in March. Time has helped me with the pain, but it does still hurt. We are here if you need anything. Tori

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Hi Renee

I am SO sorry for your loss -- it's just the most horrible thing to experience. I'm glad you have joined us here, because the women (and some men!) on this board are fabulous -- this is a community of so much mutual caring and support. Please feel free to vent anytime, ask questions, etc. Tragically, we have all "been there", so we understand and can therefore honestly help.

The waiting game is dreadful, you're right. I hope you find as much comfort here on this board, as I have.

Great big cyber hugs,
Nicole

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I, too, got pregnant after a year of TTC with the help of Clomid and lost it to a ruptured ectopic a month later. We started TTC immediately, then took two months off per doctor's instructions, then started TTC again off and on as I could handle it. The waiting and the TTC with a loss added in can drive a person crazy!