I haven't been here for several months. Lily should be celebrating her first birthday on Sunday.
That raw pain has been gone for so long and I just feel it creeping back in - not nearly as bad but just such a void.
I hear that the days leading up are much worse than the actual day, I just can't wait to get this last first over with. This week has been such crap - and it has been rainy and miserable to boot!
Thanks for listening,