First m/c (Xp)
On Sunday at work, I went to the restroom and had a streak of bright red blood on the tissue. I went into panic mode and went to the ER. After four hours, bloodworm, and an ultrasound... The baby had no heartbeat. I should have been ten weeks two days along and the baby was measuring seven weeks three days. Needless to say I'm beyond devastated. This was my fifth pregnancy and I've never miscarried before. I followed up with my ob yesterday (which was ironically supposed to be my first ob appt). She did another u/s just to be sure, and confirmed what the ER said. I'm scheduled for a d&c tomorrow morning, which makes me want to scream. This whole situation tears me apart from the inside, the fact that I've been carrying around my baby with no heartbeat for three weeks and that tomorrow I have to have my precious sweet baby vacuumed out of me. At least I got to see his/her sweet tiny face on the u/s screen yesterday. This is so terrible I can't barely think straight. Im sorry if this was a little graphic, but besides DH I really don't have anyone else to talk to about this and my heart is broken.
I am so sorry that you had to go through this. My m/c was similar I was 11w6d and baby measured 8-9w with no heartbeat. I did not make it to my scheduled d&c but had one earlier. You are probably going to go through a lot of emotions and stress the next few weeks. Remember to be good to yourself, take the time you need.
Don't worry about being graphic or needing to talk here. If you want to talk more privately feel free to PM me. My m/c post has gone over 8 pages and most of it is me rambling.
I will be thinking of you tomorrow.
I'm so sorry for your loss. It's going to take time for everything to seem real, our minds/bodies go into shock for several wks as a way to protect us.
I'm really sorry you are going through this. It's awful to bear I know. My recent loss was a missed m/c also I was supposed to be 8+ wks and the baby never grew past 5-6 wks. I opted to m/c naturally but came very close to getting a d&c after 3 wks of trying to do it on my own, it felt like forever. So at least with a d&c you will be over and done with quickly and can try to move on to the next stage of your loss. Feel free to say anything you want on here the story of my 3rd loss this past April is on here and quite graphic. T&P for you.
hang in there darling. :bighug: