so i was watching a show last night where they were in a hospital setting. the nurse is setting up the IV for this guy laying in the bed, and i suddenly start feeling all panicked. my heart is racing and i start crying. WTF? what the heck is going on?
then it dawns on me.
the pattern on the curtains of the room is the same pattern on the curtains that i stared at for 4 hours while i waited to have my D&C after we lost our 1st baby in february 2007. the same brown/teal/cream leaf pattern that i stared at and counted the squares on while we waited in the pre-op room.
i can't believe that was so burned into my brain, that seeing it triggered the response that it did. i don't have many moments like that at all anymore, so it really took me aback. i didn't talk to DH about it, he was sleeping (he can sleep through a hurricane).
i have been nervous with this pregnancy (16 wks right now), yes. of course. but not as much as with DD. yes, i have moments when i think someone is wrong. but luckily they invented dopplers. and thank god all is well. in a few short weeks we'll get to find out who is in there at our u/s.
thanks for reading. no comments necessary, i just needed to type this out so hopefully it would get it out of my head.