Well it is 6:30 am again. I can't seem to sleep even though I am on meds to help. I feel like I get well, mentally and then something throws me back into my depression and anxiety. My doctor increased my dosage of my depression meds and they are making me ill. I got AF and she gave me a headache. I don't know if any of you have experienced this since your m/c but I see bright blood and panic. I am alright with brown blood but as soon as it turns red I freak out. I guess it brings back memories of my lost. My husband says it is post tramatic stress disorder. How can something so natural (AF) freak me out?
Anyway I thought I was seeing the light at the end of the tunnel but yesterday and this morning it feels like I am back to square one. Oh how I wish I never felt this pain.
It is hard to explain how I feel, just empty and hopeless. I miss my daughter and my parents. I never thought it would be this hard.
Thanks for listening.