Today truly is the first day that I haven't cried my eyes out in a week.
Today I went thru my hope chest of my daughter who I lost almost 6 years ago...
Something in me told me to pull everything out and look at it... even the pictures (which I've had difficulty doing as I did not ever see her with any bruising or marks in my eyes).
I've come to realize that this baby's purpose (although way to short here on earth) was to allow me to grieve and for now and for my daughter. I never really greived when I lost my daughter... I was 18 and sorta just moved on with my life without ever really talking to anyone about it. I only went to the cemetary a couple times a year and not that I had forgotten her, but I didn't want to re-live it.
I've finally faced everything head on! And let me tell you... it hurt like hell.
And then I met all of you... and have slowly been crawling back up from rock bottom.
Although I may never meet any of you in my lifetime... I truly am grateful for each one of you! (Especially Marie )
I just wanted to share my happy thoughts today because I've noticed that I often voice my bad, angry, upset thoughts but never usually my good thoughts.