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    Today truly is the first day that I haven't cried my eyes out in a week.
    Today I went thru my hope chest of my daughter who I lost almost 6 years ago...
    Something in me told me to pull everything out and look at it... even the pictures (which I've had difficulty doing as I did not ever see her with any bruising or marks in my eyes).

    I've come to realize that this baby's purpose (although way to short here on earth) was to allow me to grieve and for now and for my daughter. I never really greived when I lost my daughter... I was 18 and sorta just moved on with my life without ever really talking to anyone about it. I only went to the cemetary a couple times a year and not that I had forgotten her, but I didn't want to re-live it.

    I've finally faced everything head on! And let me tell you... it hurt like hell.
    And then I met all of you... and have slowly been crawling back up from rock bottom.

    Although I may never meet any of you in my lifetime... I truly am grateful for each one of you! (Especially Marie )

    I just wanted to share my happy thoughts today because I've noticed that I often voice my bad, angry, upset thoughts but never usually my good thoughts.

    Jes

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    Quote Originally Posted by jes23 View Post
    Today truly is the first day that I haven't cried my eyes out in a week.
    Today I went thru my hope chest of my daughter who I lost almost 6 years ago...
    Something in me told me to pull everything out and look at it... even the pictures (which I've had difficulty doing as I did not ever see her with any bruising or marks in my eyes).

    I've come to realize that this baby's purpose (although way to short here on earth) was to allow me to grieve and for now and for my daughter. I never really greived when I lost my daughter... I was 18 and sorta just moved on with my life without ever really talking to anyone about it. I only went to the cemetary a couple times a year and not that I had forgotten her, but I didn't want to re-live it.

    I've finally faced everything head on! And let me tell you... it hurt like hell.
    And then I met all of you... and have slowly been crawling back up from rock bottom.

    Although I may never meet any of you in my lifetime... I truly am grateful for each one of you! (Especially Marie )

    I just wanted to share my happy thoughts today because I've noticed that I often voice my bad, angry, upset thoughts but never usually my good thoughts.

    Jes
    I am so glad you were able to share some happy thoughts with us today Take each day as it comes...

    Sending many ....Know that we are all here for you..You are never alone..

    as an aside: I received your pm back..Will respond in the next day..My parents are leaving tomorrow.. (Monday)

    Marie

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    I'm glad you had a good day. Don't worry if it is followed by a bad day. This grief thing is like a roller coaster. Just take it one moment at a time.

    How did it feel to see all of your daughters things? I think it is a good thing that you had a chance to reconnect with her. It is incredible how precious they are to us.

    Antionette

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    Quote Originally Posted by tlmommy View Post

    How did it feel to see all of your daughters things? I think it is a good thing that you had a chance to reconnect with her. It is incredible how precious they are to us.

    Antionette
    I had an overpowering sense of peace and warmth... however I know that this is just the beginning... I am going to start therapy this week to help aide my progress.

    When I looked at her pictures... I remember her even more precious... as any mother would.

    Jes

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    Thank you for sharing your good day. Please do not ever feel like you are sharing too many bad days. We all have a bond that is forged in devastation and understand where you are coming from. I am glad that it brought you some peace.

    Shelly

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    Hugs and fuzzies. ANd MArie is something precious to have as a friend if even only here. I am glad that you could have a good day today and may you have many more to come. ANd any of those bad days well come here and grieve and let your anger out. WE all do no matter how far back it is. I still cry at times for my ectopic because she had a heart beat and was 8 weeks old and i knew she was going to be a girl and that is back in 1985.

    loveya

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