First, I want to say I am sorry. I cant get my sig to turn off. 3 years ago, I suffered the loss of my beautiful Angel. It was the worst thing I ever experienced. I swore that I never wanted to be pregnant again in fear that it would happen again. Well, this past February, we found out we were expecting again. It was a very hard pregnancy with many complications but we were able to have a beautiful, healthy baby girl on October 8th. While pregnant, I had a peace that came over me. I wasnt grieving as much anymore. I was happy that I was given another chance and I knew my Angel baby was watching over us. But once Elizabeth came, an overwhelming feeling of grief came over me. I ached for my angel. My angel would have been 3 this month and I cant help but look at my daughter and wonder if my Angel would have looked like her. I wonder what my angel would look like now. Even having my baby now doesnt seem real. Like I will lose her at any moment. Like she is only here for a very short time. It's hard to bond with her because I am so afraid of losing her. I should be happy and I know that I may sound selfish because so many people are not able to go on to have a baby and I was blessed. Have any of you gone on to have a baby after suffering a loss? Is this the way you felt? I just need to know that what I am feeling is normal.