I have a friend online who've I been close with for the past 6 months. I met her after my 2nd loss and she also had 2 losses. The dejavus part is that she was due just a few days before I would have been with my 1st. It was not difficult to talk to her until now. I felt like her pregnancy represented hope for me to have a healthy baby one day. I very much cheered her on and we comforted eachother's worries.
But today I got an email saying she is being induced today. My reaction was first of worry for her and baby but then instantlly of jealousy so intense that I hadn't felt before. I feel so guilty. Why do I always have to think poor me at all the wrong times? I feel so guilty.
According to the time, she should be getting induced right now. Please everyone take a moment to pause and send a little prayer out for this precious baby and mommy so that they will have a safe journey these next hours.