hard time today
+ Reply to Thread
Results 1 to 8 of 8

Thread: hard time today

  1. #1
    rh1430
    Guest

    Default hard time today

    I am having a rough time today. I am not looking forward to Christmas, and that use to be my favorite holiday, I miss my daughter and I don't want to have to pretend to everyone that I am alright when inside my heart is breaking. I was doing well but the closer it gets to christmas the more depressed and angry I get that I don't have my daughter with me as I should. Part of me just wishes to skip to the new year all together where hopefully I will find more peace and a time to look forward to trying again and not being so afraid. I know you ladies can relate and I have read that some of you have been having a hard time too. We need eachothers support I guess. I just want to go to sleep and wake up in the new year happy. I try to stay positive but it is getting really hard. I just want my daughter with me for Christmas. I just want not to be so afraid of trying again or of my future. I want to find peace and happiness again. I just feel like I get so close and then something sets it off again.
    I am sorry for the vent, I know you ladies are struggling too. I hope it gets easier for all of us soon.

    Robin

  2. #2
    Mega Poster squirlyj's Avatar
    Join Date
    Nov 2005
    Location
    Ontario
    Posts
    3,575

    Default

    I understand. Putting away that extra stocking was hard. Christmas will definitely not be how I expected this year.

  3. #3
    Skygirl
    Guest

    Default

    DH and I are only going to celebrate at my parents house. No decorations or presents at ours. I haven't even bought anyone's presents yet, and we've skipped all holiday festivities.




  4. #4
    Super Poster
    Join Date
    Sep 2007
    Location
    East of Toronto
    Posts
    546

    Default

    Robin

    You are not alone. I'm sorry I wasn't on when you were. I spent most of the day outside shoveling. Not that you could tell because the snow just kept coming down and blowing off my neighbours roof onto our driveway!

    I'm only on for a bit because as son as the PVR has recorded enough of Survivor for me to watch it commercial free I'm going to veg on the couch with DH.

    We need to get that Skype phone thingamabob so we can have our pity party together. Take care and remember I'm thinking about you.

    Antionette

  5. #5
    Posting Addict Uropachild's Avatar
    Join Date
    Aug 2005
    Location
    North Yorkshire, UK
    Posts
    26,456

    Default

    I'm not really looking forward to Christmas much either. We're doing better this year than we did last year though. Last year we barely did anything. This year at least we have our decorations up and i've sent out cards.

    There is nothing wrong with just doing as much as you feel like doing. Even if that means doing nothing. People should be sensitive to how hard this is for you.

    Sarah
    Mum to...
    Zane. Delivered by c-section at 41 weeks. Died due to Vasa Praevia. 16-17 October 2006
    Ada. Delivered by c-section at 25 weeks. Her heart just stopped. No explanation. 7 September 2007
    Co-Host of Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support.

  6. #6
    Posting Addict shellyhudson's Avatar
    Join Date
    Jan 2007
    Location
    San Diego, CA
    Posts
    8,632

    Default

    THere is nothing to be sorry for. We all understand entirely too well. The holidays are forever more bittersweet. I am just hoping that they will not be quite so emotionally debilitating in the future. I am sending great big cyber hugs and a mug of cocoa (liberally laced with pepperming schnopps) your way.

    Shelly

  7. #7
    Posting Addict SAHM2AZL&K's Avatar
    Join Date
    Jun 2005
    Location
    Living On Love....
    Posts
    5,825

    Default

    Holidays are tough

  8. #8
    cutiepie27
    Guest

    Default

    Robin, we know exactly how you're feeling right now. I'm so sorry that you know the pain of a loss. I truly hope you can find happiness in the very near future

    ~Amber

+ Reply to Thread

Bookmarks

Posting Permissions

  • You may not post new threads
  • You may not post replies
  • You may not post attachments
  • You may not edit your posts
v -->

About Us | Contact Us | Privacy Policy | Sitemap | Terms & Conditions