Thread: Hate to be joining you

Rough day....

Today is Robbie's 6th birthday. I love him so much and excited to see him grow up but I am missing Bailey. The women on my BB are having their gender scans and while excited for them I miss being pregnant.

Hoping I can hide my tears for my birthday boy...

I'm so sorry. Sunday was my DD's first birthday as well. It was such a bittersweet day.

I am missing being pregnant so bad. My depression is getting worse. I hate life. I just want my baby back...

I'm so sorry - that is how I was with my first one, it just got worse and then it slowly changed, but it took a long time. That's not to say this time around hasn't been hard, just different.

Lots of hugs to you.

so sorry


Today was a very hard day for me..... I understand 100% what you are saying...........

take care

Thanks ladies. My doctor added a 2nd antidepressant to my mix of medications, it seems to be helping. I still miss my baby but doing better. I will also be starting counselling with reproductive mental health which I am sure will help.

Today is my birthday. I am 42. Am I too old to have another baby. My doctor says no but I don't know. I just know that I am missing my sweet Bailey.

I love how just when I think I am doing better something happens to stir up my memories of Bailey...

Last night Robbie asked to read the book "Remembering our baby". It is a book for children to deal with m/c grief. Oh my! It was so hard reading it with him. I am happy that he can talk about feeling sad but it hurt me as well.

Robbie starts grade 1 tomorrow and it really reminds me that I should be almost done baking Bailey. How am I going to get through October? I just want another baby. Am I being selfish? We can afford another child and we would love another child. Am I selfish that I want to give birth and not adopt yet? Adoption is so good but I want to be pregnant. I want to feel my baby kicking.

Margaret - I've stalked you from time to time and I just wanted to pop in and tell you how sorry I am for your loss and how very sorry I am that you are having a difficult time.

No, you are not selfish, you are human and you are a mother. You have every right to feel the way you feel.

Lots of big hugs your way. Congrats to Robbie on starting grade 1 - that is just so wonderful! Please take care of yourself and know that you have a ton of us here rooting for you all the way!