My sweet baby Bailey. It is almost one year ago that we found out that you had died before your time. I have been thinking about you so much lately. My heart still breaks with missing you. Daddy and Robbie miss you too. While we have tried for another baby it is not to replace you, you can not be replaced - there is a part of my heart that will always be yours. I envision you with Auntie Edith and your cousins who also passed on before their births.
Ugh! Today I had an MRI. It was at the same place that did my u/s when we found out that Bailey had died. It was so hard being in that place. Luckily I only had to sit in the waiting room as I filled in a short questionnaire. I did OK. I was thinking about my u/s while the test was taking place. I was sad but did not cry.
Sean and I just had our 10th wedding anniversary, we are moving to a new house which will have 4 bedrooms and I really, really want to be pregnant again! I am finding that I am having such a hard time right now. Wanting to be pregnant and hating the disappointment month after month.
I think tomorrow I will call the fertility clinic and see where I am on the wait list...
Bailey, it has been just over a month since your nana died. I envision Nana and Auntie Edie holding you and telling you how much you are loved. At Nana's funeral I talked to Auntie Jackie (whose maiden name is Bailey) about why we picked your name. She was very pleased to hear that we had named you Bailey.
My fertility treatments did not go well so if you have met any of your siblings tell them that mommy needs them to stop waiting to join our family.
Bailey, tomorrow is Valentine's day. Twelve years ago daddy and I had our first date and I started dreaming of you and Robbie. I love you and your big brother so much. Give kisses to nana on her first Valentine's day in Heaven. Kisses my sweet one!
My sweetest Bailey, on February 20th it will be 2 years since I got the positive pregnancy test telling us you were on your way. Today I ordered a beautiful memorial necklace for you. It has your name and two birthstones, April for the month you were taken from us and October for the month you were to join our family in person. I know that when it arrives that I will cry because I miss you and I love you so much. There is still never a day that goes by that I do not think of you.
Margaret, I've been thinking of you. I'm glad you are getting a memorial necklace. I got one from LaBelleDame. I can't even imagine how hard this has been on you, my heart goes out and tons of hugs. I wish....wish...that losses never had to happen.
Thank you Jennifer. The last few years have been rough. I wish I could erase them from my memory but I would not want to forget the joy we felt knowing that Bailey would be joining our family. The heartache has been hard but the joy we felt was so amazing.