Well it is the holiday season and I am falling apart. I miss my daughter who I miscarried in 07. I miss my parents who passed away over 10 years ago. I miss my dog where we had to put to sleep this past June because he couldn't walk anymore (he was 17)
I just can't help but to feel sorry for myself. I have always wanted children and it has been 4 years of trying for a baby. 3 of which were IVF because I have PCOS and diabetic. We tried clomid and then went on to IVF. One miscarriage in 07 at 16 weeks (Rebecca) and one blighted ovum this past October.
I wonder if I should continue to try. The heartbreak is hard and the recover from a loss puts a toll on the marriage and your health. My head says try again but my heart is so scared. I have 9 embryos frozen so another round of IVF won't be so complicated but the rollercoaster of emotions is what I am concerned about.
Not that anyone has the answers but how do you know when it is time to give up? I can still hear my clock ticking but I am just scared to feel the heartbreak again.
Thanks for reading.