I'm finding it so hard dealing with my feelings right now. Its been 2 months since I had to say goodbye to my baby, my first baby, who went to heaven on November 7th at 12 weeks, 2 months since my world came crashing down around me. This was supposed to be the happiest time of my life and i feel its all been taken away from me.
When I got pregnant I thought that was it - my life was complete - I felt so much love and felt so protective of this little life growing inside me that I could not imagine my world without him/her...and now I feel so empty like I'm missing a part of me and I'm so sad because the part I am missing I will never get back... Everyone says that I will have another baby and that I will love that baby just as much but right now I'm finding that so hard to imagine.....right now I just want my baby that I saw on the ultrasound screen - I want my baby that I saw grow inside me....I want my baby that I love so much and miss every day that I had so many dreams for. I wonder if the pain will ever get easier....I'm sorry for rambling on but I just felt I needed to get this off my chest.
Thanks for reading x