As most of you know I miscarried Rebecca in June. Since then I have had major depression and panic attacks making it so hard I could not work. I have been on disability for 6 months. I have to return soon. I was feeling really good until I got a call from my primary care doctor. My cholestrol and trigycerides are through the roof. Tris are 800 and they should be 150. Needless to say he put me on medicine to decrease it. Another medicine that I can not take if and when I get pregnant again. We were planning on April/May but I can't take this medication while pregnant because it is a class C. Why does life have to be so hard. I feel like I am being punished at every turn. Isn't it enough that I lost my beautiful daughter, did I have to develop depression and anxiety with it and know this cholestrol thing. I am only 33 years old and I am on more medicine then my 85 year old grandmother. I just want to be healthy and looking forward to having a baby.
One day at a time Robin. You can do it. Believe in yourself. You have already started to make changes by starting to exercise. Keep that up and increase your time (a minute or two at a time), work toward 17 minutes next. You are already at 15. I would think you now you just need to make a few changes to your diet. I'm not sure what those changes are but hopefully the doctor talked to you about them. Just make one change this week. Worry about the other the next week.
You have really come so far. Look at where you were just a few months ago as compared to where you are now.
You are now aware of what needs to be done and you will take steps to do it. Your grandmother may not be on as many medications as you but that doesn't mean anything about you as a person. It is just like at school. We make accomodations for those kids who need them. We give kids what they as an individual need to be successful. At this point, medication is your accomodation. You need it to get you to your goal of being healthy.
i'm sorry you have to deal with all of this right now. I know the feeling of "if its not one things its another". I also know the feeling of being on tons of meds, i have psoriatic arthritis, and its not fun. If you ever need to talk or just vent i'm only a PM away.
Robin, im so sorry you are going through this. It really is one thing after another. I know that is how I constantly feel right now. It so hard to get any motivation. My diet has been so awful recently, I eat nothing but rubbish, and have put on heaps of weight. Im just too depressed to get myself out of it and break the cycle. I can completely understand how you feel, its just so hard to get to where we want to go. Im sorry all of these added complications keep coming up. I hope thats it true that these things make us stronger, thats the hope I am clinging on to for now. Hugs to you
I'm sorry you are having this happen. I sometimes feel like my body is betraying me and that everything is falling apart in my life. I think grief and the resulting stress is just so hard on our bodies and we do have to be kinder to ourselves. Please take care.