My little angel's first birthday is coming up. Things are getting harder and harder. It is on my mind everyday. I don't know what I am going to do. Its been 8 1/2 months since she passed and I am finally ready to move out of my apartment where she called home. Its been rough and trying. I am sad to move but know for mine and my dd's sake (who is 2 and talking about how shes going to die) I need to move. I am just wondering for those of you who lost a baby and celebrated their birthday how hard was it? What did you do for them? How did you cope? I want to lay down and cry and wake up and have 3 babies next to me. Please help!