I belong to the April 09 board and am a little over 19 wks pg. Well we took our children ages 8 & 6 to the ultra sound thursday morning, they were so excited. Unfortunately, there was no movment and no heart beat, we lost our baby. I was sent to the hospital to be induced on Thurday afternoon they inserted 2 myzp (sp?) pills and have been doing so every 6 hrs around the clock. the last 2 doses they doubled to 4 pills at 4 hrs apart. I have been having contractions since Thurs. night but now Saturday morning I am still not dilated. I am so taken over by pain and greif. My heart is crushed and my eyes burn from all the crying. Dh and I have been given so much info and decisions that we have to make that we never in our lives thought we'd have to face (burial, cremation, autopsy, do we want to hold our agnel when it's born, name) Our minds are just blown away. The lenght of time this is taking is only adding to all the pain. I just want to go home, lay in bed and never leave my bedroom again. I know that is not possible as I need to be there for my other two children but I am just hurting so much right now. I am mad, sad, angry. Mad at life... I can't even explain it all. I keep hearing all these newborn cries from babies being born around us and it tears me apart. I want want to be able to hear my baby cry for the first time too, it's not fair. I just want all this to go away as if it never happened.
Well, as I said, I am still in the hospital right now, they hope I will be delivering our angel soon!
Please pray for us we need it badly!