I lost my daughter in June. Before the loss I was happy and hopeful and really excited. After the lost I was numb and depressed. I developed Post tramatic Stress disorder with extreme panic attacks and depression. I have been on Medication for it since August. I guess something is working because I realized last night that this is not my life. How did I let it swirl so out of control? I am out of work on disability, I can't even think about my next pregnancy until I am mentally healthy again, so our life is on hold. I don't like the person that I had become after the loss and I am trying to fight my way out of the darkness. My husband says I did not have any control over the anxiety and depression it controlled me and he is right, but now I feel guilty for putting my life and his on hold. We have 10 beautiful embryos waiting for us for IVF. I want and need to feel myself again. I don't know if what i am feeling means I have seen the light or am I just feeling sorry for myself.
Did any of you go through this or anything similiar?
I thank you for your support, you ladies have become the family that I don't have. Thanks