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How is everyone doing today??
That goes for any lurkers who have suffered loss as well...
I know the first post can be especially hard. That said, if you are emotionally able...we would like to hear your story.
Whether you are new to the board...Have come back, due to another loss...Or, have lurked and never posted...Please, check in and let me know how all of you are doing....Even if it's just one sentence saying, *you are getting through the day*....Or, *my name is so and so...I am here...But I just can't post about my loss yet*...
Your post can be as simple, or an complicated as you would like to make it.
I have been doing well. I think it helps that I am going to be TTC again starting in August so I feel hopeful about that. We also buried Jasmine's ashes several weeks ago at a tree we planted for her. I run by there a lot, but I don't cry as much as I used to.
I am still kind of numb today. I came back to work since I am having no symptons of m/c yet. I know that when I do I may want to take a couple days off so work is necessary right now. I really don't want to be here though. And, I planning to leave around 2:00 or 3:00 today. Wish I was in a financial way that I could take a few weeks off.
I am doing well most of the time. Today there was a message on my voice mail from a very HAPPY maternity consultant, from the hospital where I was to deliver. She said she was calling regarding my December Delivery, she has some forms and paperwork to go over with me (registration paperwork I assume) I felt like I was being stabbed, I actually had to listen to the message twice!! Now I have to call her and let her know that there will be no December delivery for me... I had a D&C at her hospital, I wish they would have figured that out before they called. I mean, it's not like I called them. My doctors office must put there patients on some kind of list or something.
On a better note, got a + OPK and had pretty good timing this month. Waiting for my crosshairs. Hopefully this will be my month.
I'm doing fairly well. I had a few bad days recently. I ran into a firend of my SIL and she said: 'Congratulations! I hear you are pregnant again!' There is just something about having to say that you miscarried that brings it all back. On the good side, the mother of a dear friend of mine bought me a beautiful forget me not necklace for my birthday. It has my birthstone on it as well as what the baby's birthstone would have been. I can't bring myself to wear it but it's ncie to know I have sometihng.
I'm new here. I've been lurking for a while but just now registered so I could post. I miscarried three weeks ago at approx 11 weeks. I found out at my 9 week appointment that the baby had died at around 6 1/2 weeks. I'm here for support because it is taking me a while to work through the devastation of it all and I would also like to support others going through this because it can feel isolating, at least to me it has.
Some background - I went through many, many years of infertility and many treatments, etc. and finally gave up. We adopted a baby in '01 (my son is 6 now). Amazingly we conceived naturally a few years later and my second son is 2 1/2. I was 39 when I had him. We were very surprised when we learned I was pg again in May (I'm 41 now). We were surprised but happy. I'm not sure if we will 'try' again for another baby. It's hard for me not to want to after so many years of trying and now knowing that we still can conceive. Anyhow, that's my intro. Look forward to getting to know some of you.
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Jennana1120 ~ maybe it is a little of both? I am glad all is okay with you...Day by day...
2Denise1010 ~ I am glad you have gotten to the point of wanting to ttc again. August in right around the corner!! I am so hoping this next month will be the *one* for you....
Thinking of your little girl Jasmine ...
Hannah502 ~ Bonnie I am so sorry you need to deal with work on top of everything else .... If you deliver your little one at home naturally...will you consider testing?? My heart just breaks for you
uropachild ~ Sarah....I am glad all is going well with you. I think about you and Vegas often. I read your post on the Dec 07 board regarding the mix up in appt. dates. I was so upset for you!!!! You are going through enough worries...
Praying this little one will not have the same problems Zane had
BLP ~ Bernice....I am SO SORRY you had to endure that phone call from the hospital!!! Maybe a family member can call for you? This way, *you* don't have to go into details..
I am hoping this is your month!! Please come back and update!
OneLuckyLady ~ I am so sorry you had to explain your loss....again
Your mothers friend sounds like such a wonderful lady...very thoughtful. That said, I understand why you can't bring yourself to wear it...I am sure it is beautiful though..
mattsmom05 ~ Lynne.. I am glad you decided to join us. As you already know, this is a wonderful place to come and heal, as all the women on this board, on different levels, can understand your pain..
I am so sorry for your loss....the infertility you have suffered with. I to, am older, 42. I have suffered with infertility in the sense that I just can't seem to carry a baby to term..
after losing 9 little ones (no living children) I am now pregnant with number 10, and this one seems to be going very well. I have just entered the second trimester. I have NEVER gotten this far. I feel very hopeful that this little one will make it.
I hope my story may be helpful somehow. I know how hard it is...deciding whether or not to continue ttc. Know we are all here for you...and will help in anyway we can.
im new today....and not having a good day...i was supposed to be 12 weeks today, but found out this morning in u/s that there is no heartbeat. Im scheduled for a d/c tomorrow and a nervous wreck. any support or words of encouragement are appreciated.