I have lots of words of support and encouragement for everyone else but then when I get into a rut I can't get myself out.
Today was CRAP! I couldn't concentrate at work, I eventually broke down and started sobbing (fortunately no students saw me) and then it seemed that babies kept showing up everywhere I went. I went out at lunch (to meet my friend - who forgot we had lunch plans), so I ate alone at Tim's and then I went to the drug store and there was a newborn girl, took DS to the library - you guessed it another baby (also a mom who was completely put off with her little girl) at DS's gymnastics there was a beautiful little baby being walked around by his grandma. He kept looking at me. He was so beautiful but I just wanted to cry.
I must have logged on about a million times today hoping to find someone in the chat room but no luck.
Having a pity party here - anyone want to join?
i know exactly how you feel. everytime i see babies or a PG lady I just want to cry. It's so hard, I ended up crying today as well....I was coming back from my lunch break and I just broke down....I laid my seat back in my car and curled up in a ball and just cried. I know how you feel.
I'm so sorry you had a bad day. I don't think it is easy for any of us to follow our own advice, ever. I am definitely going to have to start checking chat more often. Hope tomorrow is a better day. You'll be in my thoughts. I'll send you as many good vibes as I can find!!
I am so in on this pity party. I am having a hard time with seeing babies right now. Usually I am alright with those of my friends and those that I knew were pregnant before Damien passed. I am so not alright with it now though. I just cry and cry and cry. I have to really work at it not to break down at work. I go through a bunch of decent days and maybe even a good one here and there and then I get knocked back to square one. Sometimes it feels like being knocked back to square negative one. I thank god every day for all of you wonderful women here. Here is to faking it through the holidays. We will all survive because we are stronger than we want to be and that is what must be done.
I am so sorry you are in a rut. Don't be upset, I don't think any of us take our own advice.
I am also sorry I missed you in the chat room. I was having a rough day yesterday too and really did not want to bring anyone down. Hopefully I will catch up with you soon.
I had a rough day yesterday. It started with a friend talking about how her cancer is growing and how her grandkids will grow up not knowing her. We talked about my sister and my babies, and she promised to hug and kiss them when she got to Heaven, we were both bawling about all of that!
Sorry you had a bad day. I'm the queen of good advice - but if you read any of my posts, taking my own advice is something I don't do well - but I try. Like the rest of us all we can do is try to make some sense of a senseless situation, and hopefully one day find peace and happiness. This is what I wish for you.