I called my doctor first thing yesterday morning and they got me in for an appointment at 11:20am. I was so happy that they got me in. The doctor was different this time... More like the way I remembered and liked him before, not rushed and genuinely concerned. He did a cervix check first. Said it was closed and that he did not see any active bleeding or any tissue in there.
Then he did a vaginal u/s. The screen was turned away from me at first, but he very quickly said, "Your baby is still viable." I was happy to hear that, but I asked him if he could see any source of bleeding. He looked around for a while, but said he couldn't find anything out of the ordinary. His machine is older, so he went down the hall to see if the u/s tech could squeeze me in on her very modern equipment.
She took me in for another vaginal u/s. The baby was moving a lot... She had to try 3 times to get its heartbeat because it was moving around in there. She finally got the heart rate, 162. Baby was measuring a couple days ahead this time, 12 weeks (at 11w5d) and just over 2 inches long, CRL. She also could find no cause for the bleeding.
My doctor said his best guess is a subchorionic hematoma... But it's just a guess. He said the progression has been similar to what you would expect to see with that... Several days of light bleeding, followed by one huge scary bleed, but a baby that is still viable. I hope he's right. It's all just so terrifying, especially with the m/c still being so fresh in my mind. He also mentioned that about 25% of women will bleed during their pregnancy and most will still have a healthy baby. He did say that because of the bleeding, my risk of m/c is considered higher, but that the increased risk is really rather small. He seemed optimistic.
I've been trying to work on ways to manage my stress, but if anyone has any tips, I'll take them! I've been boycotting my doppler, trying NOT to check my underwear every 5 minutes... Even further, trying to not even look when I go to the bathroom. Spending less time here on the boards. It all seems to help some. I'm an anxious person by nature, especially when something bad is happening, and I have trouble coping and managing the stress. So this has been exceptionally hard. Every little pain means the end of the world.
I'm just trying to remain positive. Tomorrow will be 12 weeks. The first trimester is almost over and baby still looks healthy. I'm just trying to take it day-by-day and hope for the best. *Deep breath*....
I am glad you got good news.
It is so hard to worry and not to run to the bathroom at every odd feeling. I would spend as much time with my feet up as I could. Get into a good book or rent all your favoritve movies. I would also ask about asprin. It may not help, but the mental knowledge that you are "doing something" may be worth it's weight in gold. Herbal teas are good for relaxing, so is the smell of lavendar. I have Bath and Body works bed spray and use J&J baby bath. Umm.....
Omega's 3, 6, and 9 work well for anxiety and, from what I hear, as long as they do not have cod fish oil are safe during pregnancy (though double check) they are also good for the baby.
I am just now reading about all of this... so sorry you have had to go through this I was quite relieved to hear that your lil' bean is still going strong Maybe try thinking of the bleeding as something completely separate from the baby.
I agree with the others to rest, read a book, watch funny movies, and use calming scents and candles.