and I can't help it! For the past few days, I've been highly irritable and every little thing is making me so angry. Finally yesterday, I was angry b/c we invited my family over last minute to celebrate Father's Day - well, I then got angry b/c my house wasn't as clean as I wanted it to be, and then I got angry...well, you get the picture. When my dad tried to offer help with the house and when he told me it wasn't a big deal and not worth getting angry over, I shouted at him, you know it's not about the house, right? Everyone was supportive, but I was still so angry.
Last night DH and I had a good talk and I told him that I was not ready to help deal with other people's problems right now - I told him I need to focus on me and us and getting through this together. I told him I was sad b/c I didn't feel my family understands what I am feeling. DH said they don't and they will likely never truly understand.
I am usually very happy and can't stand feeling this angry .... at everything!
BTW - IMO, this started on Friday as that was the day I started to naturally m/c. I had bleeding through Saturday and yesterday I only had some spotting. I'm hoping it is over and Friday I'm hoping to get the go ahead to TTC for my next cycle.
This post made me want to cry! I can tell you're struggling with trying to live normally and grieve at the same time. Don't try to do too much. What you're going through emotionally and physically is horrible. You're completely right, you do need to focus on you right now.
Anger happens. Tears happen. IMO it's better to let the emotions hit you than try to skirt past them. It will ease some, but it's a long road.
Hang in there!
Thanks skygirl. You're right. I think it is better to deal with the emotion as it comes to you. I have some time off from work so now I think it will be easier to cry when I need to cry, be angry when I need to be angry, etc.
DH has been great and our communication with each other has been wonderful. We have been completely honest and open - I think this has helped tremendously.
It's so great that you have an open and understanding relationship with your DH. That will help you soooo much in your grief.
Anger is normal and i have to agree with pp when i say that you should indulge it. For a while at least. You know yourself when you are having a bit of an outburst compared to if you started to get out of control. Plus, it sounds like you have an excellent relationship with DH and he would probably tell you nicely if he thought you were out of control.
I am so sorry! I think all the women here know what you are going through. Just reading your post brings back hard memories. I agree. Anger is a part of the healing process. i did teh same thing. Sometimes I would just scream into a pillow.
I know exactly how you feel. I am in that pissed off stage right now. I just feel so irritable, and touchy. For me, it's better than getting depressed, though, so I'm accepting it. I think my hubby is glad I haen't relegated myself to sleeping all day, even if I do snap at him at times.
But I'm really glad that you have such a supportive and understanding DH to help you through.
Take your time with grieving and healing... don't feel like you need to hide just because others don't understand. In time it will get better, easier to handle.
(((lots of hugs during this hard time)))