Yes I have been avoiding you all. I didn't know whether or not it was okay to let you know the news that I have graduated to the PAL board again. So many times people would post their good news on this board...I would try to be happy for them but deep inside I was a little jealous and angry at the world. That being said, I have friends here and a connection with them that tells me I will never really leave this board behind.
I want to tell you what I know from where I sit today. Do not feel that if you choose to try again that you will be forgetting your angel. You never will. Every day I have now is very special to me. There isn't a moment that passes that I don't realize things could change at any moment. But I have learned from my loss, and your stories as well, that life is fragile and precious. I will use this strength to hope and pray for my little one. I still visit this board. I want to know how you all are. Plus, I know that somehow what I have learned from 2 losses keeps me real and if my knowledge will help someone get through a rough time I feel I owe it to them to give it back. I certainly got the supported I needed a million times over.
Although I pray I never truly belong here again, I know that if God should send me on this path again, I could have no better friends by my side.
Sending you my love and prayers,