Yes I have been avoiding you all. I didn't know whether or not it was okay to let you know the news that I have graduated to the PAL board again. So many times people would post their good news on this board...I would try to be happy for them but deep inside I was a little jealous and angry at the world. That being said, I have friends here and a connection with them that tells me I will never really leave this board behind.
I want to tell you what I know from where I sit today. Do not feel that if you choose to try again that you will be forgetting your angel. You never will. Every day I have now is very special to me. There isn't a moment that passes that I don't realize things could change at any moment. But I have learned from my loss, and your stories as well, that life is fragile and precious. I will use this strength to hope and pray for my little one. I still visit this board. I want to know how you all are. Plus, I know that somehow what I have learned from 2 losses keeps me real and if my knowledge will help someone get through a rough time I feel I owe it to them to give it back. I certainly got the supported I needed a million times over.
Although I pray I never truly belong here again, I know that if God should send me on this path again, I could have no better friends by my side.
Mary, I still visit this board all the time and my PAL baby is now 8 months old. This board is still the most important one to me. It was so much help and support to me after my loss, I consider it my duty to give back support and be there for those who suffer losses now and in the future.
Heartfelt congratulations to you! The lessons you have learned, while tragic, will help make you a great parent because you will never take anything for granted!
Thank you for sharing the great news. I hope that everything goes well this time around. You so deserve it. It is so helpful to hear from someone else that you can go forward and try again. My logical side has said the things that you just told us a million times and my emotional side tells me that it wouldn't be right (for whatever reason). Thank you for letting me know that one day I will be able to handle it and it won't feel like an emotional betrayal to Damien.