I can't believe that I was actually able to hold a little baby yesterday. A girl that was due two weeks after me came in with her son. He is nearly one month. I felt like a hand was patting my face (it had to be Damien) and had this overwhelming sense of peace. I asked if I could hold him as he was being fussy. She said yes as she couldn't get him to calm down all day. I cried, but it wasn't a bad cry. It just felt right. I just kept smelling his little head. He snuggled into my neck and quited right down and went to sleep. I don't know what others feel about signs and communications from our angels but I truly believe that Damien was sending me a message. I felt his love surround me letting me know that it is okay to feel everything that I have been feeling and it is also okay to be happy around other babies and give them the love that swells my heart. I almost feel a little guilty for being so happy with a baby in my arms when it has only been a couple of months since Damien flew to heaven. I know that I couldn't have made it through that without my angel boy's blessing. It really did great things for my healing.