I don't know what to think or feel right now, but I am just going to get my story out because maybe it will help me. As I am typing this I am losing what would have been my first baby. Everytime I use the bathroom it is devasting. I was only about 6 weeks along when I found out that I would be miscarrying, but I feel like I have been pregnant for so much longer...I wanted this baby so much.
My husband and I tried for about 6 months and I finally found out I was pregnant...due in May. We told everyone because we were so excited, my parents came to visit us already with gifts for our future baby...what do I do with those now??
I am so sad and confused. I want to know why this happened? I am so scared that I will never get pregnant again or if I do, have a healthy and happy pregnancy. It's amazing how quickly your motherly instincts kick in when you find out you are going to be a mother. I already fell in love, and now I feel like a huge part of me is missing.
I just want this pain and anger I have to go away. I just keep thinking about what might have been...
thanks for letting me get this out