Sad that there is a need for this kind of board, but nice to have as well.
My name is Rachel, I am 31, I have had two m/c in the last year. I have been blessed to have two children, Brilee almost 6, and Tucker 3.5yrs. I felt strongly last year that it was time to start trying for number 3. I really did not feel ready, since I had placenta previa and the complications that come with that with my ds. It was very scary for both my husband and I. Anyhow, we started trying, and surprisingly I got pregnant in 3 mo. I went to the first appt and when the doc couldn't find the hb did a quick u/s, and there was no baby. I had a blighted ovum. I waited a few weeks to try to miscarry naturally, but it was not happening, so last sep I had a d&c. We waited the two months advised by my ob, and started trying again. It took 6mo, which is not long, but when trying, it always feels long. Anyhow, I was thrilled, but nervous. I had some heavy spotting at about 7wks, and did an u/s and there was a beautiful little blob with a heartbeat. Then 2wks later (again I was 9wks along) my doc could not see the baby. I was not entirely worried, because I have a very tipped uterus, and to see the baby last time I needed a vaginal u/s. I went for an u/s the next morning, w/o my husband, as I was so sure all was okay, but when the tech said, "Oh Rachel there's no heartbeat" my hope went out the window. I opted for another d&c just days later.
I think the first loss I took some odd comfort in there not being a baby, but this last time there was a hb that I had seen just weeks before. I think I had not really allowed myself to grieve the first loss, and so when the second happen, I felt the grief of both. I am feeling better than I was, now that it is 2 months out, though it does not take much to get me worked up about it. And unfortunately there are not many ppl that I can really talk to about it.
Anyhow, thanks for reading.