I should be a Mom today. Happy Thanksgiving (I'm Canadian). I'm so bitter today. I want people to aknowledge my loss today and I'm dissapointed that only one person remembered. My mother in law. There's nothing wrong with the life I'm living. I just got a great teaching job. We're finally getting out of debt. My husband got a raise. We've had some great roadtrips. If it wasn't for the fact that I should have a baby right now, I'd say we have had an amazing year. But, I'm not happy. I should have a baby. People around me keep getting pregnant (and they don't want to be or weren't trying). I notice so many people being crappy parents out in the world. I work with special needs kids and I wonder if my baby had loved, would it be like them. I feel guilty knowing that if I had carried to term, I would still be cleaning houses or be completly unemployed and in desperate trouble financially. I feel guilty about a lot of things. But mostly, I'm just sad today. Thanks for listening.