I miss my daughter but I don't think that is the cause of all my anxiety and depression, how could it. I came to terms that I did everything I could to keep her inside of me for as long as I could. I know I will never see her again at least not on this earth. Why does this process have to be so hard for me. Is it because I delivered her so early. Should I have not held her tiny body? I don't think that is it. My therapist thinks it is and has referred me to someone who works with people with post tramatic stress disorder. I don't like that label.
I am just so scared that I am never going to be normal again. I miss my old self. I miss how happy I was when I was pregnant. I miss me. I am sick of taking meds that just make me tired. I still think my set back is normal, I had to deal with Christmas without my daughter and I am one week from AF and we all know how she messes with our emotions. I am just upset that my therapist doesn't think she can help me anymore, who gives up on their patients. I don't know if any of you have had this anxiety issue but any info would help. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers. I appreciate it.