One of my best friends is due in March. My other best friend told me yesterday that she is pg. A coworker of mine just told me she is pg.
Why can't it be me?
I have been having vey sad days lately. Now I feel like I can't talk to them about it. I don't want to bring them down. I wish I had someone to relate to and talk about my trouble TTC and my m/c. Everyone, I mean it, Everyone that I know is pg or has kids. I am the only one.
Okay, I needed to get that out. I feel bad for being sad because I am really happy for them. I just want it for me too.
I really wish that there were some magic words and I could make it all better. I'm sure we all wish that though. I am sorry for all that you have gone and are going through. It is so tough. But when you need to talk please come here. We will help in whatever way we can. It's almost been 3 months since my loss and I have noticed that everyone seems to be pregnant too. My 18 year old neice, some friends from class and even my roommate from Tech School (I was Air Force) and I haven't seen or talked to her in a couple years, then she pops up to tell me that. And for me, sometimes it's hard to feel happy for them, as bad as that sounds. I am happy for them, I know what a blessing it is for them, but sometimes I guess my jealousy or whatever tries to take over. You are not alone in this. I think that kind of thing happens to most of us, all these people around getting pregnant or we notice pregnancy more. You're right, it doesn't seem fair. I hope you find some peace, PM me if you want to talk.
Last edited by flutterby4; 11-23-2007 at 01:13 PM.
Reason: oops, forgot a word
You have friends, all of us on the site. We know what you are going through. It has been 5 months since my loss and I have been depressed and developed anxiety attacks through it. But I am feeling better and I find venting here helps an awful lot.
I think it is worse through the holidays because of the wishing our babies were here.
You can PM me if you want. I will be your friend.
I am so sorry that you are feeling so isolated and alone. It really sucks. Please come here and let it out any time that you need. We all have different stories but with the same ending. We are here for each other because unfortunately we understand each other in a way that no person ever should have to. I wish you peace and strength.
I'm glad you came on and posted. I hope you know that we are all here for you. I am so sorry that you feel you have no one IRL to connect with right now.
It will be difficult to talk to them about how you are feeling and I'm sure it will be difficult for them to share their excitement with you. If it is getting to much I guess you need to tell them you are happy for them but you just can't handle hearing about being pg today.
PM any time you need to vent. Many of us try logging on to chat as we are looking around the internet in case anyone pops into the grief and loss room. Just a way to feel connected.