I like to do this periodically on this board because as much as our losses are so so sad there are also happy memories of our pregnancies before it all went wrong.
If you feel up to it, and you want to, why dont you share some happy memories? How you told DH/SO that you were expecting and their reaction etc. Anything that you look back fondly at that you would like us to know.
For me, i think that sharing the good times helps us remember the great things about pregnancy and especially the individual great things about each baby and what they brought into our lives.
When i discovered i was pregnant with Zane i was at work! I had previously done two tests at 11 and 13 DPO and they were both negative. At work one of the girls had a spare pregnancy test (dont ask - lol) and she said i should use it because i'd got to 17DPO and AF hadn't arrived. When the lines came up i was shaking so badly i could hardly see them, but the second line was really strong! I jumped up and down a few times shrieking in the toilet and then i ran out into the office carrying my pee-covered stick to show to people. I was like "You see two lines right? I'm not imagining it right?" Then i ran into my office and called DH at work. When i told him he said "Ah shit! That means i have to be all responsible now!"
There are so many happy memories from carrying Zane. Just the fact that it was my first pregnancy and wasnt tainted by loss. I knew it could happen of course, but that blissful ignorance was perfect! I was so incredibly content and happy and felt really satisfied and fulfilled with life. His kicks were really strong and he was a BIG baby. He used to always stick his foot in one place on my belly and it hurt! Once i had found out where he was laying i used to stroke his bum and be all like "Aw! Cute lil baby bum!"
Finding out i was pregnant with Ada brought a whole cascade of mixed emotions. I peed on a stick because i wanted to go out drinking, but i needed to make sure i wasnt pregnant. The test came back negative so i went out and had a couple of drinks. When i got home i looked at the test again (as you do) and there was a super feint line! I knew it could be an evap because it was very early, like 9DPO or something. I didnt sleep the whole night because i was just waiting for FMU so that i could test again. I used a First Response and sure enough up popped this ever so feint BFP! I showed it to Scott to ask if he could see it and he told me he could. I can't really remember what he said, but we were very cautious because i hadnt even missed my period yet. When i remember that, although i was feeling a lot of mixed emotions i was primarily happy and excited.
We had a lot of problems with the pregnancy, but we decided on the in-utero name of Vegas. I would have called her that after she was born, but DH hated it! I remember reading out weekly updates on her size and development in the office at work and drawling a weekly scale drawing of how big she would be to keep on my desk. I went for a lot of ultrasounds and for one of the first ones my mum was there and when she saw the little blob with a heartbeat it brought her to tears. I remember the first time i felt her kick on my hand it was totally unexpected because i didnt get that until much later with Zane. I was laying on my bed, which i used to do often to stare at my belly. I put my hand there for a moment and i got a huge kick back. I just gawped for ages and my mouth hung open for a while and then i grinned a HUGE grin and yelled for Scott. I used to lay on the bed for so long looking at my belly and watching it move. Scott couldnt understand it, he was like "Sarah, how can you spend so much time doing that?! Aren't you bored?" I never once got bored of it.