My sister-in-law had her baby this morning. I'd be having mine early October if I hadn't lost him or her. I'm so jelous I'm making myself mad. I just don't want to talk about it but everyone else is so excited. Including my husband. He starts talking about it but after a few sentences notices my silence and stops. I know he is done grieving but I'm not. It's been three months and I know I shouldn't still be angry that other people can have children and I lost mine. I shouldn't glare at bad mothers in the street and hate God for letting them procreate and not me. I shoudln't be avoiding my very happy family at this time, but I just don't want to be part of it, you know? Like I said, I'm so bitter right now and so jelous that I'm being a bad person and I'm hating myself for it. My hubby is good about it, but he can't be on no baby conversation alert for the rest of our lives.