Hey. I just got back from the Drs. who confirmed that I am, as I write, miscarrying. I don't think I have ever been in this much pain (emotionally, not physically). I've had a hard time with my sex life. Last year I went for tests for endometriosis. I have all the symptoms but not actually the disease. I do have scar tissue above my cervix though that makes sex either not enjoyable or outright painfull depending on the day. I was so glad to finally be pregnant. I felt like, at least I can do this part of womanhood. I guess not. It wouldn't be so bad exept that I'm all alone here. My hubby and I just moved to Edmonton from Ontario. We don't know anyone here but one Uncle and each other. My hubby is not being very supportive. I know he doesn't mean to be so cold, but he's just under the impression that whatever happens is meant to be and we'll get over it, move on and all that. He doesn't understand why I'm dwelling on the pain. He gets annoyed that I can't move on and be happy for all the good things that are happening right now (his new job, our house back home finally selling so we can afford to buy groceries). But all those things seem so small and, well, pointless. I had a life inside me and now, I don't. What could possibly make up for that and make the pain less? I can't decide if I'm angry or sad. I'm sorry for rambling. Thanks for listening.