My Dr's note to go back to work doesn't run out until the 5th Feb but that will be only 2 weeks since I had my m/c.
I know the exact date my baby died which is also the date everyone at work found out I was pg (I knew on that day something was wrong but all the midwives I sopke to said nothing was wrong with me, so I carried my dead baby around with me for nearly 5 weeks-but thats another thing to moan about)
I work in an office where having a baby is the only thing you do. Everyone has a family, most people have youg babies and one guys wife is due any day. Everyone was so excited for me and it was all we talked about. I know when I get back that people are going to start telling me about their experiances with m/c but I don't think that only 2 weeks later thats what I want to talk about. I don't want people to feel sorry for me and Im fed up pf everyone saying "if there is anything I can do".
I'm just scared of whats going to happen, I don't want to spend my days at work crying. And I know everyone is really happy with their families but I know thats going to upset me too. I don't hate them for being happy I just want someone to understand what it's like to loose a baby.
sorry for moaning, it just helps me to let off steam to right down what I'm feeling. If I actually speak it to someone I will just cry