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My name is Emily and I was a regular member here in 05. I had a blighted ovum in the summer of 05, and just recently found out that I am having another one now. I went in on Friday after bleeding since Monday (I was out of town due to my grandmother's funeral). Anyway at the appointment we saw the sac with nothing in it. I wasn't shocked though, since 3 weeks earlier we had our first u/s and our dates were different. Even though the doctor thought I was only 4 weeks pregnant, I knew when I ovulated and it was a good 2 weeks off. Deep down I knew what was going on, so I never really got my hopes too high up for this pregnancy.

Anyway my doctor ordered some hcg to be done, and wants me to come back tomorrow for a follow up appointment (more bloodwork and a u/s), but he is 95% sure I have another blighted ovum. Depending on the doctor's appointment tomorrow I will probably have a d&c sometime this week. I am handling it ok, have good moments and occasionally bad moments. I know that soon it will probably hit me, so I thought I would come introduce myself. This board was a huge support during my first loss and I know it will be the same during this one.

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I'm so sorry for your loss!

Tamara

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:bighug: :bighug: :bighug:

Emily - I'm so sorry for your loss. Also for the loss of your grandmother. We are all here for you. Keep us posted on your appt today if you feel up to it. Thinking of you~

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-Julie

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I am so sorry for all your losses Emily. Please come here whenever you need. This isn't something you have to go through alone.

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:bighug: I am so sorry for all three of your losses. Even if you didn't have your hopes up too high, it's still a terrible thing to go through. And so close to the loss of your grandmother too. They say that bad things come in threes, so maybe this will be where your losses end, and your next pregnancy will be a happy one. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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Thanks ladies.

Well the appointment went as expected. The sac measured right on schedule but there was absolutely nothing in it. I have a d&c scheduled for this evening. I have been through the surgery before so I am not too nervous, but I know it will hit me when I get home that I am not pregnant anymore. Anyway just wanted to let you know how the appointment went. I will check in here soon.

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Emily, I am so sorry you are going through this loss. I haven't been on the BL thread for a good two weeks and just noticed this thread was started by you.
I realize that having gone through this before does not make it one bit easier. I wish you all the strength and will when you get home from the procedure and through the tough days that follow.
Look at Logan for hope and faith. Know that we are all here to support you. Although if may be difficult to believe now, this will pass.

Be strong,
Dee

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Hugs. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you get answers.

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I am so sorry for your losses, including your grandmother -- my heartfelt condolensces.

I've also had more than one blighted ovum -- I found it very disheartening. I'm glad you've shared about it here -- like the last time, we're going to help you through this.

Hug Logan tightly (I'm sure you do). I believe your angel babies are being hugged tightly now too. That's how I choose to envisage mine. In fact, I was very close to my maternal grandmother (she played a huge part in raising us) so I automatically visualise my angel babies under her care, up in heaven.

Feel free to PM me anytime. My last loss was in Dec 2005, so it's been a while and I have shifted through a great deal of my grief. I know live with acceptance and peace about my losses, and so does my DH. If I can be of any help to you at all, I'd be happy to.

Big Hugs,
Nicole

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I am so sorry for yor loss:bigarmhug:

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I'm so very sorry to hear of your loss. I hope you're able heal quickly.

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How are you doing?

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"missy8632" wrote:

How are you doing?

Aww thanks for asking. I am doing ok. This m/c, even though it is still hard, has been easier to get through than the first one. I think I am deep down trying to remember that I had my first m/c, and then had a healthy pregnancy with my ds. So I am keeping that idea and hope that the next pregnancy will be another healthy one. That is keeping me going.

Saturday was a very emotional day. I just sat around and cried periodically during the day. I think the emotions of everything that we have had to deal with recently finally kicked in. But I am feeling better now. As for physically, I am still healing from the d&c- which is driving me crazy- but hopefully that will end soon Smile

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I am sorry for your loss, and also have just found out that I have had a blighted ovum. I'm absolutely gutted and will opt for a d+c as it seems my body isn't ready to let my empty sac go. I'm so sorry you've had to go through this more than once! It's a horrible feeling.