Just like I imagine all of you...I never thought I would post here. I guess that's an unrealistic way to think as this happens to many women even without them knowing.
So here's my story:
I was a member of the Oct 2008 board enjoying life to the fullest. We had been TTC for 5 months and finally it happened. I was at first worried that I had no m/s ever but eventually thought I was one of the lucky ones. So on Thursday 4/17 I went to the restroom and noticed a little dark blood when I whiped. At first I thought...old blood...no worries but I decided to call my doctor. She told me to go to the ER right away. I left work early and picked up DH and headed to the hospital. We were there for 5 hours only for the ER Dr to say...the baby is fine go home and call your OB in the morning. I didn't believe it as the baby was measuring 8w5d and I was 11w1d at that point. My HCG count was at 4323 when it should have been well over 11,000. When I got home I opened the envelope he gave me for my OB and couldn't believe what I was reading...Fetal Demise! I started to cry and scream uncontrolably. I couldn't believe what I was reading. My LO was gone and I couldn't do anything about it.
Friday 4/18 I started to bleed and pass clots. It was happening and again I couldn't stop crying. It was the hardest thing ever!
So here I am 11 days later and still bleeding. This past Friday...7 days after I started miscarrying...my HCG level was at 76. I miss my LO so much and still cry every so often about it. But I'm back at work today and I'm getting better. I'm at a point where I'm ok to see birth shows and preggo bellies and what not. I have faith that my time will come again. DH and I have decided not to try but not to avoid either. It'll happen when it happens.
The physical and emotional pain is like no other and I would never wish this upon anyone ever!!! I'm sorry for everyones loss! Whatever the reason for this happening...no one should experience this pain.