Hello, my name is Victoria. To be honest, I'm not happy to be posting here, but I really need support. Yesterday, at 6w3d, I lost my first baby. It was the first time I was pregnant, so it was also my first loss. I already miss my baby so much, I miss the plans my fiance and I already had, I miss the feel of everything stretching and growing, but most of all, I miss the love. I know it's silly to think that it already loved me, but I could feel it.
I never got to see it on a u/s, so I'm telling myself it never even had a hb, but that doesn't help. I feel like there is a huge piece of my heart missing, like someone kicked me through the chest. What's worse is my finace isn't handling it well, either. He was so excited to become a father, he almost exploded the day I told him I was pg.
I only got 2 weeks with my little one. I only got two weeks of feeling it grow inside me. It's not fair that I got so little time. I want nothing more than to be a mom, and right now it seems like I won't be strong enough to try again. I just miss this baby with everything I am.
I am so sorry if this brings up dreaded feelings for anyone else. I just can't keep this inside.