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It's been 5 months

and I still have trouble believing that my baby is in heaven and not here with me. I've had nothing but trouble with my body since the m/c and finally broke down and had a good cry last night. As my due date ( Nov. 8 ) approaches, I'm finding it harder and harder to deal with my loss...I miss him/her so much. This just really sucks....

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It f*cking sucks! It is so not fair, especially when you see people like Nadia on TV. Hang on to hope. It is the only thing keeping me going (non m/c issues). I have to beleive that things have to get better since they have no place to go but up.

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.”
Winnie the Pooh

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Im so sorry Holly.... i know your have been through so much with AF and TTC... my heart breaks for you girl!

I am feeling the pain if impending due date as well... I have already told my family that i will need that day to myself, no matter what. I plan on just being alone, with my sadness. Maybe it seems strange to some, but for me its gonna be the worst day of this journey.

We are here for you girl!

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:bighug: I understand. It sux.

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I'm so sorry, Holly.

I dread the day the due date comes up (March 2, 2010) for the baby I miscarried.

Good for you for breaking down and having a good cry. That should help.

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You're in my thoughts, Holly. You are a strong woman and have been such a support on this board.

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Having all you guys makes me feel a little less alone...

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I'm s sorry. My fist loss would be one October 12. My second loss would have entered the world around the same time. I lost both in April. I dread both October and April now. Two whole months ruined for me forever. I have followed you a bit and I'm just very sorry for everything you've been through. I'm thinking about you.

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Thank you so much you guys...it's nice to be able to come somewhere and share my feelings, even though they are negative. I'm so sorry that any of us needs to be here, but it is comforting knowing that there are people who understand. Sending hugs right back at you and thinking of all of you :bigarmhug:

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I am sorry for your loss and the hard time you are having.

I still hate June because that is when I lost my first. Miscarriage is something that NO woman should ever have to go through.

I am sending a big HUG your way.

In time the hurt won't be so strong. Be patient with yourself, 5 months is not very long. People grieve in their own time and way.

Robin

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"Holly_Anne618" wrote:

and I still have trouble believing that my baby is in heaven and not here with me. I've had nothing but trouble with my body since the m/c and finally broke down and had a good cry last night. As my due date ( Nov. 8 ) approaches, I'm finding it harder and harder to deal with my loss...I miss him/her so much. This just really sucks....

Hey Holly just wanted you to know my thoughts and prayers are with you. I suffered a m/c at 13 weeks I was due right before you, November 5th. It's so depressing knowing that next month I should have a little boy/girl at home and I have nothing. I have no idea how i'm going to get through the day...

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:bigarmhug: Ashlyn! It will be tough, but we will get through our due dates. You'll be in my thoughts hun...