I didn't tell anyone IRL about this except DH, so I don't really have the usual support that I get when I'm sad.
We have two kids and were planning to be done for a long time, if not forever. I've been charting and we used condoms this month, each and every time. I noticed my period was a couple days late, so I took a test. It was positive. I was devestated, in denial, and so was dh. We did NOT want another baby. I thought it had to be a mistake. I took more tests in the next couple days. Some were positive, some negative. I just figured it was the different brands and sensitivities. Last night I had a test that was positive, then turned negative. I've never had that before, so I was confused.
I woke up this morning to dark blood. I took another test and it was positive. I feel so guilty, like I made myself have a miscarriage. I didn't want to be pregnant, but I was, and now I'm not. I prayed over and over that I wouldn't be pregnant, and now I'm getting my wish. I was just getting used to the idea of having a third baby, and was actually kind of excited to see that BFP this morning.
I'm glad this board is here, because it's no fun having to keep my feelings all bottled up.