I have just found out today that my baby did not make it. I should be 16 and a half weeks and the baby measured 16 weeks but had no heartbeat.
I am obviously devastated. However the thing that is upsetting me the most at the moment is the impending labour. I can't process any thoughts and grieve until i have gone through the labour. I am dreading it.
I was given a tablet today and have to go back in 48 hours (Sat morning) for labour to be induced. They have told me that it will take around 9 hours and is like a normal labour.
I just wondered if anyone would mind sharing their experience. I just feel that it is going to be so traumatic. I have never wanted an epidural with normal labour, but i think i just want to be numbed so i can't feel anything. Do you know if this is an option?
I know from what i have read in the past that people say to name the baby, spend some time etc. However i just don't know if i even want to look. I don't know if i want to know if it was a boy or a girl. I just have in my mind that it was a perfect baby that didn't make it and i want to keep it in my mind. I don't know if i would find it harder once i had seen it. I feel bad feeling this.
Thanks in advance.