How is everyone holding up? Sending big hugs to each of you.
I am holing my own. I lost my sixth angel a year ago today. I left my abusive husband in June of last year and I'm raising two small boys on my own. I do not know what I would do with a newborn in the mix. I know sometime things do happen for a reason, though the pain is still the same.
I think we all lose a piece of our hearts when we lose a baby. But, the pain does get easier with time. Do not be afraid to grieve and do not let others put a time limit on your loss. You own your feelings and no one can tell you how you should feel or what you should be doing. Keeps taking things day by day, we will get through this together ladies!
Hugs Missy. You have had a rough year! I know I try to find the positive to not having a baby right now, but it still hurts that we don't.
I am doing better than I was a few months ago. I am starting to sort through junk and just want to be a part of the world a bit more! We are still ttc, on month number 9 now, and out first month of clomid. I am hopeful. If we do get pg this cycle I will be due less than a week away from when I was last year! Wow!
I'm doing pretty well, all things considered. DH and I are trying again and praying that everything works out. My doctor said he didn't see any reason why this would happen again (actually, said the entire scenario would be "highly unlikely") because all of my blood tests and genetic tests came back ok.
I am trying to hold on to anything especially hope. I had my 3rd lose in Feb of this year. It was a natural miscarriage at 5 weeks but I had told myself that if this IVF round ended in miscarriage that I would not attempt again, now over 1 month after the miscarriage, that desire to have a child of my own is creeping in. I am torn, I want a child but I am scared of losing another baby due to my own health issues or just out of the blue bad luck.
We see the doctors on April 13th to get more information on all the miscarriages and to see what the next options are. I have 7 embryos frozen and I don't want to destroy them. I would like to eventually put two embryos in again to see what happens, but I want to lose 20 pounds first.
I hope everyone else is holding on too. Sarah (uprochild) is my inspiration, she had two horrible loses and hung onto hope and now has a beautiful daughter named Lyric. That is what I hang onto. She got her miracle and I will have mine one day too.
All of a sudden I'm doing horrible! I'm not sure why, after my m/c last year my SO and I broke up - I think the 2 m/c's had a LOT to do with it. We were both so devastated and he just kept it all in. He left just over a month after the m/c. I met someone else last summer, fell in love, was so hopeful about our future, thought I might be pg a couple months ago, we both wanted a family, were getting along, then he totally had a little freakout and all his past issues came flowing out. Argh!!! I don't know what to think or if anyone is out there for me, some days I just feel SO down... so I'm back here! LOL
Missy - sounds like you did the right thing, and trying to focus on the positive is a great way to deal with things. Even if it is really hard sometimes...