Yesterday was hard for both DH and myself. We agreed to watch our dear friends little girl, she just turned one. Their son was having his tonsils out. We see our friends and their children every weekend so we thought it would be no big deal, I was wrong. After one hour there I began to cry and said to DH this should be us full time. I sucked back the tears and took care of her the best I could with DH help. He was wonderful with her. It just made me long for our daughter. Last night DH was in a funk when I finally got him to talk he simple said, what I miss our daughter its hard. He doesn't cry in front of me and only cried once since the lost that I am aware of. Don't get me wrong we love being around those kids, they are like a newphew and niece to us but I guess watching one all day that little just put the thought into our heads of how it could have been if we never lost Rebecca. I just wanted to let you ladies know I have been lurking still at the boards and I miss you ladies.
Watching a one year old was just emotionally over stimulating for us.
If my dear friend is reading this, please don't take it personally. We love your children and it was good for us to watch your little girl because it gave DH and I something to look forward to again one day. It just made the heart ache a little.
Good luck everyone. I hope everyone is good.